Here's My Church

After several years of pain, I have finally figured out why the Jesus said that you must forgive. Grudges, and the need for revenge do nothing except drag you down. For me, all the things that i've been through the past few years made me physically ill, but after plenty of prayer and thinking "the past is the past, nothing you can do about it, except get on with life" I have forgiven the kids that picked on me in school and the lady that got my Mom hurt, and I feel %100 better. I wish I could have done this a long time ago, because I can only imagine the life I've wasted feeling sorry for myself!

These past few weeks, I've learned a lot. First off, I've learned my own weaknesses. Yes, I do get down on myself a lot! I'm trying, with God's help, to have a more positive outlook. Second, just because someone criticizes you, it doesn't mean they're picking on you. And finally, but most importantly, When you're down and just about ready to give up, God will be there for you, even if no one else is!

How do you read your Bible? Everyone seems to have a different method. Me, I usually pick on book, and try to read 2 or 3 chapters a night till I finish the book.

Lord, I pray that you will help me be the person that you've designed me to be! I know you have something planned for me, but I need some direction.

After reading John's description of Heaven as recorded in Revelation, I can't wait to see it in person! It is going to be wonderful, being surrounded by all the believers that came before us, and finally seeing Jesus himself!

Please Pray for My Family, we're having financial trouble again, my Mom's lawsuit didn't pan out, and the money she did get is almost gone. I don't want to be out on the streets!

The members of my church are some of the most wonderful people in the world! I felt welcome there from the first time I ever stepped through the doors. I didn't think they'd talk to me much because of my weight any my shyness, but boy was I wrong! As much as I'd love to move back to my home state of Virginia, I don't know if I'd ever find a church as good. You can just feel the presence of God everytime you enter the doors, and I have a feeling that God is going to be using us for great things!

After seeing all the things my preacher does, I don't know if I could ever be one! Dan always seems to be on the go, helping someone or doing something for the Church. I honestly don't know how he finds any amount of time when he isnt't tired to spend with his family! But, when God calls you to do something....

Heavenly Father, now that you have helped me forgive all of the people who were involved in Mom's injury, please help me get over what they did to me in school. Even though it's been over 2o years, it still hurts, and has really kept me from being the person I can be! I know that they are adults now, and probably have forgotten about me.

Ya know, I wish I could go back in time and live during the time of the Bible. I'd love to meet Jesus, the Disciples, the Apostles, and all the other Heroes and Bad Guys in the Bible. It's one thing to read about a person, but meeting them in person, wow!

I don't know if this post really belongs on here, but I think that worrying is the most wasteful activity a person can participate in. Worrying serves no purpose except frazzling your nerves, and taking a huge physical toll on you. Most of my readers know about the various things going on in my life, but since I've stopped worrying and leaving things in God's hands, I feel %100 better!

Lord, the biggest thing I love about you is that you are everywhere! No matter what I'm doing or where I am, you're watching over me and can hear my prayers even if I'm far away from home!

Lord, PLEASE help me get over my shyness! It has cost me so much over the years!

Lord, Once again I thank you for giving me peace when it comes to dealing with what happened to Mom. I know it took 6 years to many, but right now, I feel %100 better when it comes to it! Lord, it's like I huge weight has been lifted from me, and I will forever be greatful to you for it!

You know, God really does have a method in his actions! He doesn't allow things to happen in your life just to see you struggle. If life was easy with no obsticles, we'd never learn how to handle things in life, never learn how to grow, and most importantly, we'd never learn how to depend on God! I wish I would have come to this conclusion years ago, it would have saved me lots of grief!

Today's Verse is:

"This is the day that the Lord has made, We will rejoice and be glad in it" Psalm 118:24

Lord, I thank you for the wonderful day we had today! Everyday you give us in our lives is a blessing, and we should always be thankful!

I can remember the first time I was ever in a church. I was about 4 or 5 maybe and Me and my Mom went with my Aunt to her church. Well, the choir started singing, and it just scared the heck outta me, and out the door I went! It took me 20 years before I ever stepped foot into another church!

"Aim at Heaven and you will get Earth thrown in. Aim at Earth and you get neither." C.S. Lewis

In Bible Study yesterday, my Preacher made a good point. Sometimes we get so wrapped up in asking God for things we want, that we don't thank him for what we have! So, Lord, here are the things I'm thankful for!

A wonderful family
Wonderful Friends
A Home
A beautiful lot of land that I live on
The chance to worship without being persecuted
The chance to live in the greatest country in the world
My health
A wonderful Church
And there are a lot of other things, thank you Lord!

Lord, please help me not have such a quick temper and lost my cool everytime someone says something about my weight. I felt so stupid today after what happened in the store!

Today's verse is:

For as much as ye know that ye were not redeemed with corruptible things,as silver and gold,from your vain conversation received by tradition from your fathers;
But with the precious blood of Christ, as of a lamb without blemish and without spot 1st Peter 1:18-19


Lord, I thank you for loving me, dying for my sins, and saving me, YOU are the ONLY way to Heaven! Money won't get you there, fancy possesions won't either. The only thing that does is faith in you!

Lord, I am yours, use me however you will!

This week, I have totally felt at peace with all the things that have happened to me in my life. I have finally forgiven that lady that got my Mom hurt, and I am almost at the point were I can forgive all those people that picked on me in school. Maybe now I can get on with my life and be the person that God wants me to be!

Why is it that a lot of people only call on God when bad things happen? While I do believe that God will help you when there's trouuble, God also likes you to thank him for the good things that happen in your life every day! Here's an example: even though the weather's been really crappy around here the past week, I thank God for the rain, since our flowers and garden really need it!

Friends may come and go in your life, but God is always there for you!

I am totally amazed at how my Mom has handled her injury. You all know how I used to feel about the situation. I wish I could have handled it better, because the attitude I had cost me the respect of a lot of people. Lord, I pray that somehow, things can me repaired between the people who my rantings offended and myself!

As some of you may know, I'm a shy person. Even though I find it an inconvienience at times, it's not as bad as I think it is sometimes. Moses was a shy person and not a good speaker, and look how God used him!

It's not easy being a Christian, especially in my Family. Both of my Sisters are not Christians and have very hostile opinions about them, mot of which are not repeatable on here. A few year ago, while travelling with my Sister Julie to Maryland to go shopping, and I asked her if she'd like to go to Church with my parents and me. From the look on her face, you'd think I'd called her every name in the book or something! Seriously, I thought she was gonna make me get outta the car and walk all the way home! Anyway, I keep praying that she'll come to God before it's too late, and will keep praying for her for as long as it takes!

Lord, I pray that you would give me the discipline to keep up a diet. I know that being fat is bad for me, and over the past couple of days I've heard of 2 large people who have suffered strokes because of their weight. So please Lord, Help me!

Right now, I'm trying to make more time for just sitting down, reading my Bible, reviewing what I've just read, and really digesting it. I used to read every night, but such is the hectic life I lead....even though I know that's no excuse!

Another person in the Bible I admire is Caleb. Even when he was 85 years old, he was ready and rearing to claim his land that had been promised to him 45 years earlier, and to take on the Giants there. It goes to show you that God keeps his promises, even though it might take years for that promise to be fulfilled!

Lord, Once again, I pray that you would guide the woman you have for me and myself together. I know that it will only happen in Your time, but I pray that it's soon, because I am sooooo lonely!

Tonight, I had a little tussle in Chat, and It was nice to see my friends stick up for me. Jesus was right. No greater love hath a man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends. (John 15:13) Lord, once again, I thank you for all my friends. I know I don't have a many as I should, but the ones I have, I love them all and would do anything for them, and I know they would do the same for me!

Prayer is a 2 way street. When we pray, we expect God to hear us, but when he answers us, are WE listening?

Lord, once again I ask you to show me your will for my life, and what you want me to do to serve you.

In Sunday School, we read the story of Hannah. She was a woman who was so broken hearted that she couldn't have kids, and her Husband's other wife, who did have kids, never let her forget it. Hannah went to The Temple and prayed like she had never prayed before. God later answered her prayer, and Hannah gave birth to the prophet Samuel. I have prayed like that before. I have spent many an hour in tears praying for my Mom's hand to be healed, and for God to send me someone. But, I know that God does hear my prayers, and if my requests are in His will, they will be done. If not, they won't.

One thing I've learned over the past few days is that it's soooooo hard to leave your problems with God. Most of us think that we can do things on our own, but it ends up blowing up in our faces. If you lay your burdens down at His feet, things will be a lot easier!

There is some truth in that statement " The Lord Works In Mysterious Ways" For example, even though I deeply miss my hometown of Fairfax, VA., I don't think that I would have even started going to Church and gotten saved if I hadn't moved here to this little town in West Virginia. Perhaps taking me out of a place that I was so familiar with was God's way of putting me in an enviroment where I would be more susceptible to Him. Anyway, I'm glad he did!

I didn't want to post the following on this blog, but it's somthing I want to discuss:


Do you all really think that God cares if you're a Republican or Democrat? I personally don't think so! it just gets me mad seeing people using Religion and God in trying to further their political agenda. The Pat Robertsons, Jerry Fallwells, and the George Bushs of the world think that anyone who doesn't believe the way they do, and anyone that isn't a Christian is Scum, and doesn't deserve to live. They think the First Amendment needs to be abolished, and want to replace our form of Government with a Theocracy. But what really gets me is when these "So-Called" Christians said that 9-11 happened because not everyone in the US is a Christian. So, lemme get this straight: God killed 3,000 innocent people just to make some point? I think not! When people of other religions , mainly Islam, see these leaders of our country calling them Scum, no wonder everyone in the Middle East hates us! And when people such as Bin Laden and all his gang hear this, you are just asking for trouble!

I think I have finally come to terms with my Mom's injury, and that her hand will never work again. Why It happend, only God knows. And, I have finally forgiven the lady that caused the accident. After almost 6 years, it feels like a huge weight has been lifted of my shoulders. Thank you Lord, for helping me to find some finality and Peace!

I have some news that has really gotten me excited! I have joined a new Sunday School class in my church. It's tought by my preacher, and it's geard toward people in my age group. Before that, I was in one that was mostly old(er) folks, including my Dad. I like the class because I feel more comfortable discussing things with people my age. With all my problems, It helps having people who know what you're going through.

As we celebrate Easter this weekend, I thank you once again Lord, for going to the Cross so that I could be forgiven and have eternal life with you!

We're having revival in my church this week. Last night, our speaker read from Jonah. That is a book I like to read. It just goes to show you that there are no excuses when God tells you to do something, and you don't Jonah didn't want to go to Ninevah to tell the people that God's judgement was coning soon, So God brought the whale along to swallow him up and teach him a lesson. I know that when God tells me to do something, and I don't or take my time getting it done, usually things happen to mess me up. Coincidence? I think not!

Lord, I pray that you would please heal my Mom's hand! Not because I want it healed, but because I can see her pain and discomfort, she doesn't deserve it! I know you can heal her lord, all you have to do is say let it be done and it will be!

Lord, once again I pray that my Sisters would come to know you as Lord And Savior. I have done all I can do, now they have to make the decision on their own.

The only regret in my life is that I got off to a late start as a Christian. I was saved at 25. You all know some of the things I went through in my childhood, so I really wish that I'd have been a Christian then, so that God could have helped me, and things would have been a bit better.

Lord, I thank you for all my friends! I know I don't have that many, but I love each and every one of them, and I pray that tonight, you will watch over them, and take care of any needs they may have.

Another Bible story I love is the story of Job. I really admire him. God took everything from him, and he still kept his faith. He could have said "God, go away, I don't want anything more to do with you", but he stuck to it. I can only pray that my faith could be that strong!

Another Bible story I love is the story of Job. I really admire him. God took everything from him, and he still kept his faith. He could have said "God, go away, I don't want anything more to do with you", but he stuck to it. I can only pray that my faith could be that strong!

I believe that God performs mircales, because I'm one myself! I was born with several birth defects because my Mom's thyroid went bad when she was pregnant with me. The doctors said I probably wouldnt make it, but after 10 major surgeries, here I am after 34 years! Thank you Lord, for letting me experience life! I know I've been through a few rough times, but you've always watched over me!

I have a special Prayer Request for today! Pleaese pray for my family. My Mom and my Sister are fighting because of a huge misunderstanding, which I don't want to talk about here. The way it's going, I'm afraid things are going to get worse before they get better.

With a new year, I am resolving to get closer to God! I'm going to increase my prayer time, Bible reading and just trying to be a better person as well as a better Christian. This is one resolution I am definately gonna keep!